Friday, 07 September 2012
..or the no that means yes..I experienced a revelation starting this morning, gradually crawling on me with an undeniable certainty. Wednesday i decided not to keep going to Bible studies because i feel those are not my beliefs. I just went there from fear of losing human contacts. I believe it is yesterday that images from my past started to creep into my mind. It is today that photos of my mother and father on their wedding day came back to me in my head. My mother with a sad smile and my father with a look of almost disgust on his face. That is it ! they passed it on to me ! They were doing something just because...because there was nothing better to do. They got married because. Just like i went to these Bible studies because. I know that these revelations came to me because i said no.
When we say no, we actually say yes to something better. These parents when they said yes they should have said no. But they said yes without love for what they were doing, so were condemned to a life of oppression and resignation as life went by, with a laughter here and a laughter there as life has it's moments of relents. Between moments, people have children who copy them and repeat their mistakes from fear of they dont even know what. These memories came back to me because i said a conscious no. No is the first word as far as i can think a child will say in any language. No means yes to the truth. The truth comes when i say no to nonsense. Nonsense is something we do just because. please share your certainties or uncertainties....