Friday, 21 September 2012
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101. memories

This is not a whining post as i often say it is just things i like to share and that i find interesting as time passes by. There was this man with a truck that became my first real man boyfriend when i was 52 years old. I was living then in a building and in the ground floor there was an auction business. They had auctions sales every Tuesdays and Thursdays. I was very happy to have his visits and he also seemed happy. This lasted at least a year. He ate a lot of food also. As a self employed person, and a labor he used among his various jobs to collect all sorts of junks, from pipes, to furnitures anything one can name. It took me quite a while perhaps 2 years or more to realize that he only visited me on auction days. But that was after our frienship ended. So every time he dumped his truck at the auction downstairs he came and visited me after. No dump no visit. Metaphysically speaking this makes sense. One stone two birds..And by all means i am not resentful, as i still talk to this person when i see him on the street or at the store. But having known better would i lend myself to such deal knowingly ? Readers could think that this man was just unrefined but not necessarily..he could recites pages of Milton by heart..so it has nothing to do with a lack of education.. So what would make people not see what's going on ? Not being aware when things happen right at the moment ? Seing things only after they have happened ?
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Examine not only what it seems he wanted, but what you desired as well, and like most of us, you'll see the answer. Whatever comfort comes from our relationships is the comfort we take. What you gave him in companionship may have inspired sonnets on another site. One can never know, only live as best we can.
@JadeMaster2 - There's a reason for everything but people are rarely reasonable..so i think...one of my favourite quotes is...experience is something we get when wer'e too old to use it...nice seeing you in this beautiful cool evening...i hope it's not too hot still where you are...
Sometimes it is easy to get carried away by our own needs and not realize that we are being duped. But on the other, now that you know, you know this is another life's lesson to learn.
it's easy to be blind in the moment. it happens to us all!
It's never too late for love.
@angys_coco - We learn with our mistakes..different mistakes repeat themselves endessly..so we learn constantly...as you say another lesson to learn...
@I8it - The present moment is hard to see..the past moment is easier to be seen from the present..
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@PrisonerxOfxLove - true, and they say that love is timeless and everywhere..
The fact that you were convenient doesn't mean he didn't value you.
He sounds like an interesting guy. If I was a woman, I'd probably be attracted to somebody like that, too.
Dating protocol now seems to be that the man should feed the woman first. Make your next boyfriend take you out to restaurants a few times before you start feeding him.
I am also currently dating a special man.
He works at a job that does not inspire or reflect his potential as I am. He is a caring, loving and just the emotional support I need with the vocab of a college student but not necessarily the education.
I am currently blessed to have met him.
I suppose the guy's ring finger did not carry a ring, just because in hard work a ring would get damaged or is dangerous to wear while working with tools.
How can you tell if a guy is single? Well you will get him by response time by asking unexpectantly if he is single or does he have any other women friends.
I am in an open relationship and basically what I do not know about, I don't trip. Basically I cannot look at other women or show distracted attention when my girlfriend is around. She does not mind having me follow her around in her neighborhood too.
Hmm, I wonder if I should start memorizing Milton? I do know quite a bit about plumbing and other stuff. Isn't flirting on xanga fun and we are just doing it just to be doing it?
There may be less hair on the head but still on humans there is a lot of covering up to be done......
@dingus6 - I like the word 'convenient' it describes perfectly well what i tried to convey. I would never want someone to pay for me at the restaurant, protocol or not. lol..lol..feeding the woman first sound hilarious and so Cromagnon..you are funny..beside my dating age is over...i'm just reminiscing...
@Parsimony - You are blessed with a good man..you must deserve it...i'm glad for you..
@PPhilip - I'm not sure what the term open relationship means...anyhow i imagine that after a while a person would know if the other person is single or not. Lies can be sensed unless we dont want to see the truth. I was weak to mention Milton..knowing proses by heart is not a sign of sincerity..i just remember he did.. I myself dont even know Milton...Anyway i just find subjects to write about here on this site...as i said before i'm not preoccupied any longer with dating as i have reached a certain age and i could'nt bother less...
It turns out I have nothing to add to what others said. I wouldn't call myself blind so much as hopeful. Hopeful of acceptance or that the other person would appreciate fully what I could do. Hope's kind of a silly thing, sometimes.
@loner_writer - to me hope is a form of energy that keeps us going..it's like an illusion but ...i just dont know...it's a force..it's what's was in Pandora box..i'ts a form of belief...oh ! i wish i could express myself better.. maybe i should drink some expresso... ;)
It is definitely energy, and I think espresso would help. I'm not sure why but I stayed up all night, just travelled home and that tends to get the blood pumping and increase my optimism a little. Thus today there's energy in store for hope.
@loner_writer - There is energy more that we can handle..'espresso' is right and not my expresso..strange as i woke up this morning i knew i made a typo somewhere and you came along and corrected my typo. If this is not energy then i dont know what is....you will sleep better tonight or today perhaps...whichever works....
I'll bet you don't believe in tipping either.
Don't burn your bridges. If a guy wants to take you out and show you a good time, allow him.
@dingus6 - You bet wrong..i believe in tipping big time..'i dont know what made you think i dont believe in tipping'....and I object vehemently ! i'll pay for my own self !
You're very selective about which societal conventions you observe! How do you feel about cannibalism?
@dingus6 - lol..i will try to answer as fast as i can..i must go soon, but if i remember i mentioned once on your site that i've met years ago a person saying he once had eaten human flesh as a meal and it was delicious. The man was very violent in general but really looked like the average person. I think that cannibalism it WRONG... ! for heaven's sake !
What a picky eater! No wonder you don't get asked out to dinner.
@dingus6 - delicious...